I know how you feel..

I'm back in school now. I've been flaking for the first week and only just now getting my ass in 2nd gear. I'm unemployed and currently waiting on a call from PCC (my friend assured she could get me a job there) It's the only recent application I have out there. Both my mopeds are broken and I've been doing small fixes each weekend but I still can't get my main one to turn over. I have 2 ideas for tracks I want to make (I'm a on-and-off turntablist) but I haven't started making the beats yet.

Yet I still dedicate at least 2 hours per day to TF2. I don't know why I'm doing this to myself, I guess it's just the easiest way to entertain myself. But even when I'm playing it just feels so.. fucking stupid. I think I really need a swift kick in the ass.

I think between us you probably have more money. I spent most of mine on school, books, and my bikes. I say you should fly out to Seattle. We need to start a fight club.

I've been there a few times myself. Most recently last year, my ex moved away, I lived alone in the house and fell into a routine of work>home>game>sleep>... Days began to blur. Eventually I realized that I had made my life empty. I was not happy. Now I live in an awesome house full of fucking laserbeams and crazy lights with Whut and Sirus, two of the coolest people you will ever meet. I've got a beautiful girlfriend who loves me. I make enough money to pay my debts and live comfortably. My days still begin to blur occasionally, but never for long. I have never been more happy. It took some pain and struggle to find it, and on the way things happened which took me as far from happy as I've ever been. The first step was recognizing that I wasn't happy, and then realizing that I can be happy.

I feel myself sliding into this camp more and more, but what I find helps is direction. I'm convinced that the set of emotions we call "depression" is a by-product of a stagnant, stale lifestyle. This doesn't mean parties every day to cure yourself, but it does mean that your days have to start being interesting. Trying new things is a great way to go about this. Try a new restaurant, try a new route home, try pressing all the buttons on the elevator.

Socialization helps a ton. We're humans. We're social creatures. We're not meant to live by lonesome selves. Populate your life with people--new or old. Ask someone to coffee or grab lunch with a co-worker. Put some beers in the fridge and have a friend or two over--insist they bring their friends.

Find something to pursue and work at it--one day at a time. As long as your mind is focused on something, it doesn't have time to be depressed. Gaming can be a venture--though I sense you hunger for other experiences. I won't make suggestions, as that tends to push would-be attempters wary, but I will say that anything you've ever liked doing--break it down to it's fundamental parts. Then decide which one of those you like best. Decide why you like it. You've just occupied yourself with active thought. Step one, check.

except I have a job

I didn't like the movie, but we should all start up a Fight Club. Two of my friends at school did. It was pretty funny until one of them ruptured a disk after a german suplex or something of that nature.

Or get a gun and go shooting at a range somewhere.. Guns are highly therapeutic.

Muff, setting aside the fact that you just said you Don't Like Fight Club, you're rather forgetting the FIRST RULE OF FIGHT CLUB.

Oh shut up. How do you spread the word about our super secret club (tee hee) if we can't talk about it? =\